Sunday, October 4, 2015

Caleb pictures + life updates!

Caleb is seven weeks and some days today! I can't believe it's almost been two months since he was born.  We've gone through quite a bit in the last month. 

I will start writing about our craniosynostosis journey very soon.  And I'm more than ready to write it down and share the whole journey! I just need time.  I'm finding that there isn't a lot of that recently :) 

Here is a quick update:
*We decided to pull Andrew out of pre-K and have him to pre school again.  While this was a hard decision to make, it was the best thing for him.  It's amazing how things are so hard and humbling for a parent and don't phase the child much at all. I feel like over and over, recently, I've been given the opportunity to say "I choose the best for my child over the wants and desires of myself." It's hard. And sometimes I don't want to choose my child. I really love myself and doing what I want.  But that's not my job as a parent.  It's a sweet and humbling and revealing road.

*Caleb was diagnosed with craniosynostosis a few weeks ago.  We went from "His head is a funny shape, let's check with the doctor" to having surgery nearly scheduled in 3 1/2 weeks! 

*Elise turned two on Thursday! Two is a not a baby.  And she seems so grown up lately. I will post more on this another time, too.  She's such a treasure to our family.  I just can't imagine our family or our lives without her.  They would be lacking in such deep ways without her around!

That's all I can think of right now! Here are some pictures of Caleb from weeks 2-6ish.  

Snuggles with daddy!

He loves his paci!

Smiles for sister kisses.  This is NOT always the case ;)

Snug as a bug in a bean bag!

My days look a lot like this.

One month picture!

Sunday naps.

Post bathtime.

Bassinet sleeping.  Still tiny and fits just right in there!

Sleepy smiles.  He is always smiling in his sleep! It's so lovely.

A quick snooze while the kiddos play around him and I cook dinner!

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Nine days in.

There are a lot of things that haven't phased me with the fourth baby.  Night feedings aren't too hard.  Fussy moments go away pretty quickly.  Even diaper changes -- they happen and I'm already changing Elise's diapers all day.

But there are parts that are overwhelming.  Mainly, four kids.

In fact, I started writing this when Caleb was nine days old.  And today he is 13 days old.  Life takes over quickly.  But never in a bad way.  And I don't mind.

My expectations are low.  And I feel like that is a good starting point.  I want to rest and have grace with myself, but also be mindful to care well for my people and my home.  All in due time...

My daily goals are as follows: get boys to school on time and pick them up on time, make sure Caleb is feed and changed and not crying all day, love Elise and spend time with her, try to clean the island at some point, eat some food and drink some water.  The end.  I'm so grateful we have friends bringing us meals for the next few days! It's so, so, so helpful at this point!

Aunt Kate was here for eight days and that was so nice. Extra hands are so helpful these days! Plus, the kids loved having her around.  Extra attention isn't so bad for anyone right now!

I've cried a few times.  Good, hearty, get-all-the-things-out cries.  Maybe you know this about me, but crying is my outlet.  Happy and sad and overwhelmed and delighted -- all come with tears.  My emotions are deep and full -- so after a baby, they feel even more so.  My tears are good.  My body feels good and I enjoy moving around without pain and bending over without grunting ;)  I have been walking every other night and it feels good to move.  Mostly, it's good for my head.  Time alone, enjoying the weather, deep breaths -- I think it's some of the best recovery medicine I could have!

Caleb is such a good baby.  He sleeps a lot. He is such a good nurser.  Maybe the best one of the all four babies! He has a few fussy times in the day.  His eyes are open more now and it's sweet to see those tiny eyes looking into mine.  I waited so long to know what those eyes looked like.  They are beautiful.  I'm just so in love with this little boy.  I'm beyond grateful that God knew we needed him.  He completes this place in my heart that was apparently void.  He makes our family feel full, in the best way possible.  And I am so glad God gave him to us!

Elise is adjusting to life with a new baby.  She loves him and is a little momma. She has moments of acting out, but she is still so very little herself...

The boys are enjoying school for the most part.  I'm truly just concerned with helping them adjust to this new normal and loving them well.  School is harder for B this year, so I'm praying for an abundance of confidence and grace for him.  Andrew really likes playing with his best friends everyday ;)

I've been taking a lot of pictures of Caleb. I can't help myself. He's just SO cute!!!

Aunt Kate took some family pictures for us.  I forgot to get some at the hospital.  And all the days after that.  I'm so glad she got a few for us!

Saturday, August 22, 2015

Pictures galore!!!

 Here are pictures from my phone from Caleb's birth and the first week home!

just minutes after he was born! all the snuggles and happy feelings. 

getting his stats checked.

Finally made it to the post birth room.  Patrick left to grab the kiddos and so it was just Caleb and I most of the day!

Elise was so so very happy to hold the baby.  She's still excited about him.  And the boys are delighted and love Caleb well!

those lips!

Caleb and Alexandra -- sweet friends from the start! She's 5 weeks older.

Hanging out under photo therapy lights.

How we slept because Caleb did not like being under the lights, naked and alone.  I was happy to hold and snuggle him.

Some leisure time while recovering ;)

Happiest Andrew.

Little momma checking up!

Walked to the park with the kiddos and Aunt Kate. So a few sweet pictures for Caleb and myself!

This boy melts me! And I couldn't be more grateful he's ours.

First bath. Hated it.

Fourth child.  Using a girl towel.

Just talking about the day.

Such a sleepy baby and so content. Unless he's naked.  He doesn't like that.

eyes! one week old!