Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Nine days in.

There are a lot of things that haven't phased me with the fourth baby.  Night feedings aren't too hard.  Fussy moments go away pretty quickly.  Even diaper changes -- they happen and I'm already changing Elise's diapers all day.

But there are parts that are overwhelming.  Mainly, four kids.

In fact, I started writing this when Caleb was nine days old.  And today he is 13 days old.  Life takes over quickly.  But never in a bad way.  And I don't mind.

My expectations are low.  And I feel like that is a good starting point.  I want to rest and have grace with myself, but also be mindful to care well for my people and my home.  All in due time...

My daily goals are as follows: get boys to school on time and pick them up on time, make sure Caleb is feed and changed and not crying all day, love Elise and spend time with her, try to clean the island at some point, eat some food and drink some water.  The end.  I'm so grateful we have friends bringing us meals for the next few days! It's so, so, so helpful at this point!

Aunt Kate was here for eight days and that was so nice. Extra hands are so helpful these days! Plus, the kids loved having her around.  Extra attention isn't so bad for anyone right now!

I've cried a few times.  Good, hearty, get-all-the-things-out cries.  Maybe you know this about me, but crying is my outlet.  Happy and sad and overwhelmed and delighted -- all come with tears.  My emotions are deep and full -- so after a baby, they feel even more so.  My tears are good.  My body feels good and I enjoy moving around without pain and bending over without grunting ;)  I have been walking every other night and it feels good to move.  Mostly, it's good for my head.  Time alone, enjoying the weather, deep breaths -- I think it's some of the best recovery medicine I could have!

Caleb is such a good baby.  He sleeps a lot. He is such a good nurser.  Maybe the best one of the all four babies! He has a few fussy times in the day.  His eyes are open more now and it's sweet to see those tiny eyes looking into mine.  I waited so long to know what those eyes looked like.  They are beautiful.  I'm just so in love with this little boy.  I'm beyond grateful that God knew we needed him.  He completes this place in my heart that was apparently void.  He makes our family feel full, in the best way possible.  And I am so glad God gave him to us!

Elise is adjusting to life with a new baby.  She loves him and is a little momma. She has moments of acting out, but she is still so very little herself...





The boys are enjoying school for the most part.  I'm truly just concerned with helping them adjust to this new normal and loving them well.  School is harder for B this year, so I'm praying for an abundance of confidence and grace for him.  Andrew really likes playing with his best friends everyday ;)

I've been taking a lot of pictures of Caleb. I can't help myself. He's just SO cute!!!









Aunt Kate took some family pictures for us.  I forgot to get some at the hospital.  And all the days after that.  I'm so glad she got a few for us!







Saturday, August 22, 2015

Pictures galore!!!

 Here are pictures from my phone from Caleb's birth and the first week home!

just minutes after he was born! all the snuggles and happy feelings. 

getting his stats checked.


Finally made it to the post birth room.  Patrick left to grab the kiddos and so it was just Caleb and I most of the day!

Elise was so so very happy to hold the baby.  She's still excited about him.  And the boys are delighted and love Caleb well!

those lips!



Caleb and Alexandra -- sweet friends from the start! She's 5 weeks older.

Hanging out under photo therapy lights.

How we slept because Caleb did not like being under the lights, naked and alone.  I was happy to hold and snuggle him.

Some leisure time while recovering ;)



Happiest Andrew.

Little momma checking up!



Walked to the park with the kiddos and Aunt Kate. So a few sweet pictures for Caleb and myself!

This boy melts me! And I couldn't be more grateful he's ours.


First bath. Hated it.

Fourth child.  Using a girl towel.


Just talking about the day.

Such a sleepy baby and so content. Unless he's naked.  He doesn't like that.

eyes! one week old!

Friday, August 21, 2015

First day of school -- 2015-2016

I cannot believe I have TWO children in school.  Where did the time go? How are they big enough to not be home with me all day long?

It's such a bittersweet thing -- growing up.

This year Benjamin starts FIRST grade at the Academy.  He was mostly excited, but a little nervous because he knew there would be a lot of hard work.  He was glad that this year he was able to play on the big playground.  Plus, his best friend is in his class! His favorite color is blue.  His favorite thing to do is play with Alexander and he wants to be a scientist when he grows up. His teacher is Mrs. Rinner.

Andrew is starting pre-K this year! He is going half day, so I pick him up at noon. I was super sad to see this kid go.  He is such a helper to me and I have enjoyed my time with him so much.  He was pretty hesitant about going to school, but warmed up once he saw his desk AND all of his best friends in his class!  He was not excited about starting school when I asked.  He was sad and nervous.  And he said he would miss me. {cue tears}  Andrew's favorite color is green and his favorite thing to play is ninjas.  He is excited to play on the playground and eat lunch at school. His teacher is Mrs. Chan.

A big year begins again.  The Lord has been kind and we seek Him for guidance as our boys grow and learn and become young men.  These guys are precious and sweet and rowdy!  Each with their own strengths and weaknesses that make them their own people.  I love watching them grow and change and become who they are! It truly is an honor and privilege to be there momma.

Here's to a new year, to school days and learning new things!